Now that we've cleared the dementors out of the way. Let's do some real talk:
There comes a time in every TRUE artist's life whose passion IS your profession and whose profession IS your passion that you have to pull away from those things that hinder your growth and welfare more than help.
People wonder why EYE don't "do for THEM" and "help put them on" or show the community love. What they fail to realize is EYE DO "DO FOR THEM" by dropping FREE knowledge and classes EVERY weekend.
EYE "DO FOR THEM" by dropping FREE pearls each and every day that you actually CAN take to the bank of life and cash in for a positive return!
EYE DO "HELP PUT THEM ON"...by turning them on to what GOOD music and poetry is SUPPOSED to sound like so they don't waste BOTH our times with their...errhh..."art."
EYE "DO HELP PUT THEM ON" by encouraging them to DO BETTER and attempt to put them on a BETTER path of those with GOoD tastes and GOoD credit...but it just won't happen without the reciprocal action of respect and humility and the ability to LEARN.
And EYE DO "SHOW THE COMMUNITY LOVE" as EYE have for over 30 years, showing up at the events of others (until it wasn't feasible for MY car or MY pockets to do so) when these same ones would NEVER show up at an event for ME or pay me ONE CENT for MY craft...just because of their own insecurity and egocentricity. Faking imitators who think they are greater just because hateration lives in their bones more than elevation. And wasn't EYE the actual ONE for OVER 30 YEARS actually giving a damn enough WITHOUT local reciprocity or support to put this show...MY CREATION...on the air week after week after week (even though EYE was going thru my OWN depression and challenges) and invite the "pond" into the much bigger ocean in hopes you might "get it" and wake da fukk UP?!!
And let's face it: EYE have been the one actually DOING IT BEFORE all these so-called fakes say THEY are doing it. YET...you PAY them and SUPPORT "them." Okay....get THEM to "die, lie or cry" for YOU.
EYE can remember reaching out in a time of need (something EYE absolutely HATE to do). Did the "GoFundMe" campaigns and ALL that. And the very folk you THINK would have supported....the very ones EYE have supported for YEARS and for FREE gave me not one penny. NOT...ONE...PENNY. Some much for "local love." All talk. No substance. They just "used" you for thrills and shields and wait til your blood chills to be a part of your public epitaph and claim that which was NEVER theirs to claim.
Images remain...and poignant points replaying in my head. Ruby Dee in a poem said:
Revolutionaries don't get job security
They compete with rats for cheese
And with strays for shelter
After dey big bullets make feet out of their knees
In one of our wonderful and insightful conversations, Rev. Hosea Williams once said to me and my husband Baker: I wish they had've told me THEY weren't serious. I was...and that's what hurts more than anything. I was the one SERIOUS...and seriously by his side. And they are the ones....who've made money from it and lie...and tell me I'm crazy.
Can relate. Can sooooo relate.
And thinking, maybe "local" is not actually "local" or "home" for artists. Maybe it's just a place to test boundaries. After all, you can't bring the ocean to the fish bowl and expect the fish in the bowl to see that the water is any different.
Just saying....why EYE have learned to make different moves. Because some wars are "unwinnable"....while only a few revolutions and movements are worth fighting for. The first...being...your OWN evolution.
But, one thing for sure. Local or otherwise, EYE am NOT gonna feed you food off MY plate and have you drink out of MY cup when you didn't deserve or earn the privilege or did NOTHING to help grow the crops or make the wine. How presumptuous of you to think YOUR life and welfare comes before MINE! WHERE DEY DO DAT AT?!
And THAT'S when EYE made Daddy and Mommy VERY happy because EYE learned MY lessson and realized when to grab a hold of MY blessing while letting the bullshit go.
AND STILL EYE TEACH.....AND RISE!! Can't help if YOU can't see thru your blind eyes. That ceased to be my problem a while ago....when the REAL smiles appeared! ;-)
What makes sense, makes cents. And what doesn't...DOESN'T!!
And EYE am soooo over it. OVER...it. Better...not bitter.
And the best is yet to come.