The point is...EYE was dealing with my own burdens while taking on too many other burdens that were NOT mine to have. EYE was jumping too many hurdles in a "handicapped" state. Yet, my resilience and persistence out-shined the struggle and made people think EYE was "superwoman" 24/7. Hell, even my mind kept telling me that...even though my body knew otherwise. EYE was walking around with this "badge of honor" that was not truly honoring or healing ME.
EYE was putting others' needs ahead of my own; listening to greedy and needy whispers and folks who had NO idea of my life, struggle, contributions or achievements convince me it was "GOD's will" to serve others more than serving GOD's greatest gift to me: MY LIFE AND WELFARE.
EYE was spending way too much of MY precious time, energy and resources, either "battling the beast" or trying to build foundations that were NOT nor ever gonna be my own, while being left to build my own foundation alone. AND EYE OWN UP TO IT! MY FAULT IN MY OWN "DOWNFALL." MY "sin" in my "struggle." MY lesson to be learned in the "desert of life."
EYE HAD DROPPED THE BALL IN MY OWN GAME OF LIFE AND WAS TOTALLY IGNORING AND NOT FULLY NOURISHING THE TRUE STAR PLAYER: ME!!
It wasn't just the inconsiderate nature of others; EYE had allowed myself to be used, hoping my gift to others would eventually be appreciated and reciprocated. However, if one can't see or appreciate their own gifts nor understand the WORK it takes to overcome REAL struggles in a REAL world (REAL crowns are earned; not just given), then they will NEVER respect nor appreciate YOU...YOUR GIFT...nor your presence. In fact, just like Cain, they'll grow to resent it...and resent YOU...only because of their own insecurity and inadequacy and misunderstanding of life, karma and law of attraction.
It was at then that the realest of epiphanies hit me...and "Da Oracle" finally LISTENED TO DA ORACLE...and EYE understood the ONLY thing EYE am obligated to this "world" and to others to do is give them the same thing they gave back to me: A powerful message.
Can ya hear it NOW?!